count down

to 2009... 2 more days!
MAIN resolution is to:
BUDGET MY MONEY & USE MY CREDIT CARDS FOR EMERGENCYS ONLY



other NEW YEARS RESOLUTION (goals)
-Continue my 3.5 gpa in College hopefully until I graduate in April 2010 or until the next year.
-Pay off my credit card bills by 2010, (a year to do it)
-Stick to this job I have, If not find a new one right away. In other terms ALWAYS HAVE A JOB.
-Stop procastinating on my homework.
-Start a Travel fund for me so I could go to California in the Summer time :)
-Get my License!!!
-Stop drinking to a lot of soda
-Take my Friends to Maui via Super Ferry for the weekend just to have fun

---more when I think of it :)

Christmas Eve

-Zippys

-drop aj home

-picked up my da at home

-went to makakilo for a family gathering

-mom yelled at me AGAIN! bad mood

-watched christmas movies

-ate dinner

-opened presents

-talked stories

-watched tv.

well the point of this blog is because this christmas

wasn't what i expected. i wasn't really excited for it. it just

seemed like an ordinary day. It's probably because the older

i get i forget about things. I'm too bust with work and school.

When i was younger i couldn't wait til christmas eve. I counted the

days, all the things little kids do. When Christmas eve arrived I got

so much presents from my family and relatives. But now that

i'm older i do the giving and i recieve less. I mean i'm thankful i

got something, well money mostly now. it's really hard to explain

but hopefully some of you get what i mean.

btw; merry christmas. happy holidays. && have a safte new year!

yours truly, 

Aimee

update & new years Resolution

Has it been this long?

wow it's been awhile since I went on this.

I've been really busy for the past month I guess.

Sorry i haven't been updating, but I'm back :)

So some updates. Hmm, I watched Twilight for like

the 45079834750987q34 time LITERALLY! It

seems like it. I have been working ALOT for like

9 hours every time I work. I still have the loads

of credit card bills but I'm managing. I'm

trying to find a second job so I can use the money

to go towards my bills only. I'm DONE with my

christmas shopping :) finally! Count down,

Christmas is in 2 days! My Mom's birthday in a day.

My 2nd Quarter being a College student is over!

Gonna be my 3rd quarter in January, so 6 more quarters

until graduation in April 2010 a long time from now.

Winter break just started 2 days ago, and I'm already

lazy to do my review questions pack for 3 subjects.

Finals is in about 2 weeks when we go back to

school in January & I haven't even started doing

my review questions, let alone studying! ergh.

My boyfriend & I made 3 YEARS on December 16th :)

I'm super glad that I'm lasting this long in a relationship.

I doubted myself & this relationship in the beginning because

of the past that my boyfriend & I have but this relationship is

proving me totally wrong & I'm ABSOLUTELY happy!

I will try my hardest to update this daily or every other day mmkay!

Twilight

So an update on what's been going on in my life.

friday November 21st, 2008.

Went to school to catch up on my work that I'm behind on. 

ate dinner for Matt's birthday at Bucas at Wards with the boys

Crystel, Michael & Sheryl.

After dinner we watch Twilight which was so worth more than $10 bucks

foreal. Edward Cullen is so memorizing. I couldn't stop talking about it

with my friend sheryl after the movie ended. Sheryl slept over 

my house and we did a hookah session. 

Saturday November 22nd, 2008

Went to dinner at Willow's with my BBY & his family.

Slept over my BBY's house. Bought the Twilight saga

because i couldn't get enough. Read until 5 in the morning.

Sunday November 23rd, 2008

Worked from 12p.m-7p.m, it was a chill day as always when i

work. Read twilight again. haha finished half of the book in less

than a day :) it's really interesting. i couldn't put the book down.

Hopefully, i finish the book by Tuesday night or Wednesday morning :)

Did my homework, but not sure if i did it all because i wasn't

really paying attention in class on thursday. lol

Crystel, Michael and their dog came to my house and just chilled.

overall my weekend was good. tried my best to not get it ruined

& it didn't. i don't let anything ruin my day anymore. i just move

on and forget about it because i can't dwell on stuff that's not

worth it. people change, so it doesn't matter to me anymore.

yours truly, aimee

it's weird

how people can be soo FAKE!
i'm not tryna be a hypocrite because
i know i've been fake before but this
draws the line.

People can talk soo much shit behind
other peoples back and pretend that
nothings wrong. Say one thing to one
person and say the exact opposite to
the other. yenno?

I try to stay as far away as possible to
all the BS but it just doesn't go away.
I try soo hard to mend things but it's
like no one cares let alone listens to what
i have to say.

i've learned that it doesnt help, it's not
gonna get anywhere so i'm trying to be
as TRUE to my friends and to myself
even if i know it's going to hurt.

i give up

i give up on caring so much for the people that i love dearly. I try to be the best friend that I could be but if they don't care for themselves then why should I yenno? I cared to much to the point that i'd honestly do whatever it took to make them satisfied. But honestly i did so much but still no progress. it sucks to see the people i care about ruin they're lives & fuck themselves up but what else is there that i can do. So i give up & i'll just watch, i repeated myself over and over again but it seems like no one listens to what i have to say until it happens to them.

slowly by slowly i'm not even gonna care if anything happens to you.


yours truly, aimee

via sidekick

Bare with me because my macbook is being an ass right now so I'm doing this blog via my sidekick 08'. I haven't updated my blog since last week and todays my only chance.

Lately school is stressing me out. I have tooo much homework to do everyday that I don't have enough time to do it. I recently got a 2nd job so that I can keep up with my bills. I have been paying my bills late because I don't have the money to pay it. So I'm thankful that I got it. Hopefully I'll get my bills down before February so I can go on my birthday weekend to california. I wanna go there so badly to take my mind off of things happening here in HI. If I had the money I'd pack up all my stuff, catch the next flight out of here and move because I just can't handle all the stuff happening. I'm trying my best to do it & understand. I know I get through things but this time I just can't. Life just has been up my ass that I had enough.

But anyways, christmas is coming up and I started on my christmas list already. Thank goodness, so I don't have to do it last minute like last year. I don't have time to do it cause I'm juggling 2 jobs and school. I've noticed that as I'm getting older I'm not into the same things I loved when I was a kid. I use to love halloween, new years etc but now it seems like it's just like any other day. Christmas and my birthday is the only 2 things I don't get tired of. Lol

I'll update my blog the next time I don't work or when I have extra time on my hands.

Yours truly, aimee

To: Ken Bautista

I can't believe that your not here in Hawaii anymore. Your back in Vegas :( it sucks that your up in Vegas now but it was better for you to move up there so I'm happy for you. I know that you went through a lot with your life and your life down here. I tried my best to help you with your problems and what you needed. Your we're seriously like a brother to me, hell you even lived with me for about 2 months. haha I scolded you, we had our share of fights just like any other siblings would. Even if you weren't any bit related to me I treated you like family. I miss you bro seriously and you left only on Monday. I know you'll come back someday to visit & I sure as hell will visit you in February for my 19th b-day weekend vacation so mark your calender for that mmkay?! haha I just hope you won't forget me by then. I'm honestly glad that we met. I totally remember how we met. You added me on myspace, we talked for like a month and I asked you if you wanted to come to my 18th birthday overnight hotel party & you came likely enough you knew James them who I knew about 2 years before I met you. So it all came along great. We all started cruzing and grew closer to each other than I would ever expect but I'm glad things turned out the way it did. We have so much memories Ken, & I know I'll cherish it. 

SEE YOU SOON BRO! ;( I LOOOVE YOU! 

always remember where your from.

OBAMA!

Our New President.

I am ABSOLUTELY speechless. I have so much to say. I am super glad that he is our NEW president. As he said to his first speech as a president "it is time for a change..." I agree to every single word he said. He gave me goose bumps. His speech touched my heart and it gave me goosebumps. I believe that what he has for the US is what we ultimately need. This year is by far the most different year from the rest. It doesn't matter if you have all the money in the world, or even the color of your skin etc. If you believe that you can make a difference & put your heart 110% into what you believe that it can be achieved. It is possible, everything is possible if you set your mind to it. We are in financial crisis and I agree that he can change it. It might not even take months, years or the presidents term to change the US but it's a start. He took the first step to change and it was being the first african american president, he ultimately made history today.

I have so much more to say but I can't type as fast as I can speak. 

2008 is by far the most memorable year. From being a senior, graduating, going to college, having a financial crisis, having a new president etc. This is the year I won't forget, hands down.

update

I'm sorry I haven't been on this for like 4 days. I have been really busy with school. I've been having so much homework that I haven't been even getting enough sleep. Here's my 4 day update.

Monday October 27th, 2008: School was boring as usual. Went to my boyfriends house in kaneohe because he needed money. Went to Windard mall. Wanted to look at phones on T-mobile. Chatted up with the assistant manager and got a job opportunity. Passed on it but now rethinking. Gonna go there on Monday to ask for an application and I'll see if I get the job or not.

My hours got cut back because of stupid seasonal workers. BLEH! I have to much bills to not be working. So I need another job. 

Tuesday October 28th, 2008: Went home straight after school because I wanted to catch up on my sleep. I woke up around 7p.m. ish because my parents kept pounding on my door because they wanted my boyfriend and I to eat dinner at Thelma's with the whole family. Did all my homework after.

Thursday October 30th, 2008: School was awesome. The costume contest was pretty fun & really funny. At night My BBY, AJ, my sis RY, Matt, my cousin Crystel and her boyfriend Michael went to the Shock house at blasdiel arena. It was fucking scary. I was yelling the whole way through. The 10 rooms made me wanna cry. haha I really don't like haunted houses but because my friends and my boyfriend wanted to go I had no other choice but to go. I loved it. Got out of the shock house in about 5 minutes. lol My friend matt thought that I was special effects cause he heard screaming the whole way. haha We went to hawaiian Brians after and played 4 games of pool. Then went to zippy's to eat. 

Friday October 31st, 2008: Worked from 11:30a.m to 3p.m. Went to Village park to eat at the Korean BBQ hut with my boyfriend and AJ. Stayed home until night time then went out. This is the first halloween that I was really bored. lol I guess because I'm getting older I don't find things that I use to love when I was a child as fun anymore.

This or that.

Today while in the car I realized when I was talking to my best-friend on the way to drop him off home that I can do one thing but then I can't do another that is similar to the subject. Like Flying, I love to go on airplanes to travel and not boat cruzes. It's probably because I'm not use to the whole boat cruz liner thing. I love the view when I'm in a plane but I've noticed that it's more dangerous to fly because of the circumstances of crashing or whatever. But the thing is I don't like boats because it takes like 3 times longer than planes so its a bigger risk if something goes on. I really can't get to my a point because it's gonna take me a while for me to even understand what I was talking about in the car. But to cut it short, here's examples of what I can do and something similar that I can't do.

I can't ride the bike but I can ride the scooter (both 2 wheels)

I can't swim but I love to float and I love the water ( same subject: water)

I can Roller blade but i can't ice skate (exact same thing but one is on ice)

I can snowboard but not ski (snow is involved)

I can long board but not skateboard ( both boards but one is longer)

I love to fly on planes but not boat cruises (transportation but one takes longer       than the other)

I can write with my left and not my right (about writing)

I can dance but I can't sing (performing arts)

I can drive automatic but I can;t drive standard (operating a car)

etc, blah blah blah!

yours truly, aimee

Honestly,

I had enough, I could try my best to pretend that everything is okay but I can't fool everyone any longer. I'm seriously tired of everything. I wanna give up so badly but I want to prove so much people wrong. I'm not a screw up. I'm sick and tired of sticking up for everyone. Honestly, grow up and stick up for yourself. What else could go wrong in my life. Lately things haven't been going as well as I planned. It's really annoying, but I guess it's life. It's ALWAYS about life yenno. I just wanna scream o the top of my lungs "I GIVE UP, FUCK IT, FUCK EVERYONE WHO DID NOTHING BUT GIVE ME HARD TIMES, FUCK LIFE IN GENERAL" but I can't. I wanna cry my eyes out about all my problems but it still wouldn't be enough. It may look like I'm well put together, that I have everything I want and so on but that's not even close. I want to move far away as possible to see if anyone would care or even notice that I'm gone. I don't think that I can run to anyone anymore, because everyone I know screwed me over at least once and it's hard for me to honestly trust anyone with my heart and problems besides my parents. 

I have so much problems with school, money, bills, family, & friends. I sometimes wish I was those rich kids who didn't have to work for there money, that it was just handed to me. That family problems wasn't an issue, that my life was the perfect t.v show that you'd see on t.v but it's not! URGH!!!! I hate everything at this moment, I wanna die so I won't any problems anymore. 

Fuck it! 

Did god intend this?! or did I make it this way? 

yours truly, aimee

Not according to plan

So today i woke up pretty early because I wanted to go to the swap meet just because I haven't been there in awhile. On our way to the stadium it was raining super hard plus there was gonna be a UH game so swap meet closed early. ugh, haha so we decided to eat some little ceasars in salt lake. Me, my boyfriend and Shayna talked stories after we finished eatting about the jobs we were gonna get after we finished college. Pretty deep convo. Afterwards we walked around k-mart because we we're already there. I wanted to look at the christmas decorations, ornaments and trees but about 5 minutes of looking around we heard over the speaker in the store that they we're giving away free things. We wanted to check it out so we did, and ended up getting a small free micro fiber cloth, thats it. But the demonstrations we're really cool so we had to get what they we're trying to sell. It was called Mr. Sticky and dang it works, honestly. I don't believe things unless i see it for my self. 

Okay so like i said i wanted to look at the Christmas stuff but we got side tracked. We dropped off Shayna home then headed to pearl ridge because I needed to exchange something at foreva'21. lol But ended up not being able to because the thing I wanted to exchange was already sold out. So my boyfriend and I went to Tilt so he could play his game for a while then headed home. I wanted to re-arrange my room so we did after we ate again, haha. I get really irked fast and I was because I didn't get to cleaning until like 15 minutes of being in my house. I didn't want to get mad at my boyfriend but he just doesn't know when to leave me alone especially when I'm mad, so as the usual I got mad him. Tried to re-arrange my room so many times but I didn't like how it was so we ended up rearranging my room for like 4 hours. I got really lazy and mad to go out so I just wanted to stay home and rest cause I was tired too. We we're suppose to watch movies with my friends but we're gonna be late for the movie so we never went. Bowling didn't go through because my friends ex chickened out, that dippshitt. Ended up watching a movie with my boyfriend but he ended up falling asleep so I was watching it by myself, as usual. After the movie was done we ate again lol. 

That's about it soo like my day didn't go according to plan at all and I hate it when it turns out like this but watevers I'm over it. hah!

yours truly, aimee

UNFORGETTABLE

UNFORGETTABLE NIGHT FOREAL!

So my day started off as a good one. Went to work, got ready to go out, watched high school musical 3 then headed to a party. We thought it was gonna be a chill night, just us friends cruzing because it was our friend's going away party. It was all right until the rest of our friends came. They all came all at once, so there was i think 6 cars. One of my other friends friend got all nuts cause he thought we was taking over there "territory" like wtf?! grow up, you ain't no dog claiming a territory like you pissed on it or some shit. Our friends never like start trouble so then we migrated somewhere cause we just wanted to have fun, we went to the park and some of our friends stayed back to wait for our other friends & then we got a phone call that some boys was looking for us and wanted for beef. Our guy friends wanted to back up our friends that was left at the parking spot. While we was walking there we saw like 20 thick and big guys walking in one line, blocking the road so that no one could go out. We wanted for leave cause our friends drank and we knew shit was gonna go down. We was headed towards the car when we saw the group of guys coming at us. We stood by the car and watched them come closer, this big dark ugly guy came towards us and was like to my friend "wea yo' friend?! huh, tryna act all bad in our territory. what you like beef?! huh!" then WAMP! this guy swung at our friend, he hit the floor then things just when out of hand from there. I was telling my boyfriend to go in the car cause I never like nothing happen to him but he said "no just leave em". I went in the car but like 5 seconds later i saw this guy throwing punches at my boyfriend so I got out and checked up on him. It was my boyfriends first fight and he took em down pretty good until the guys friend when help em' out. Had this girl looking at me, I was all hyped cause one fucking punk when hit my boyfriend so I wanted fo' throw with her too, we was yelling at each other until i came closer to her then she when back up. HAH! i would've fuckin' throw with her fucking ass if it wasn't for her prick ass boyfriend holding her back. PLEASE! I can stay mellow until someone pisses me off. Okay so then I was looking for my two other friends that was in the scrap. I saw them across the street getting mobbed so I ran there and started yelling "FUCKAH HIT EM' ONE MORE TIME I GON CALL THE COPS" If yenno me yenno that I can yell especially when I'm mad. They never like stop so I started yelling louder "SOMEONE CALL THE FUCKING COPS, CALL THE FUCKING COPS" like 4 times then they started running. Had choke neighbors looking outside and they all was on there phones calling the cops. The fucking guys who wanted for scrap to begin with when all dig! haha, wtf?! so lame. Never was man enough for handle going to jail. wtf, so we waited for the cops & then when talk to them about it. Gave the description of the guys we remember & the witnesses took the license plate of the people who when call us out and gave it to the cops. We got blamed for stopping at the park when we shouldn't have been there.  Some of our other friends dug out cause they never like scrap, only had 8 of our friends and 20 of them. Haha, so unfair fuck if they was in our territory they would've got there ass whooped too. Anyways. After that we all met up at Pearl City to meet up with the rest of our friends and some more. We looked at our friends & my boyfriend that got mobbed and hit to see if they was okay, & they was. They wanted a round 2 so they called up some more of our friends and headed back down to ******* to look for em' around but they wasn't there. Lucky thing cause it was about to go down if our friends saw em' there. We went to our friends house for hang out and drink the beers and shit we never drink. We was talking about it all night and just laughed about it until like 430a.m. We all went our separate ways. We got to my house around 6a.m cause we stopped at Wal-mart to stall time. That's about it for today. 

I can't use names and places because I no like mention the people names that was involved. BUT I FUCKING ASSURE YOU I AIN'T MAKING THAT SHIT UP. ABOUT 60 OF US KNOW'S WHAT WENT DOWN, SO YOU CAN BELIEVE OR NOT AINOFUCKNKEA!

HANDS DOWN, ONE OF THE NIGHT I AIN'T EVER GONNA FORGET.

Continuing on with my RECENT blog

Shout outs to the people i ultimately care about. Figure out which one is you.

1.) You brought me into this world, you gave me anything and everything that i could ever ask for. You taught me lessons that I now use everyday. You gave me a purpose in life, to not abuse it and not to take it for granted. You taught me that family always comes first than everything else. I wanna thank you both for always seeing the positive in me, that I am able to do anything that I want to if I set my mind to it. One things that you taught me was that education is the key to a better life and that when you both we're kids you didn't get a chance to finish your education, so you wanted better things for me because all you both want to do see me be successful and happy. I don't know what i would do if I didn't have you guys in my life to support and love me with unconditionally. There is nothing I could do to repay you both for everything you have given me in the past 18 years. I PROMISE you both that I won't let you down again. I know I have let you both down before but people make mistakes and I know that I have learned from it. I've grown up and matured myself to not let you down again. I remember when I was 13 I told you guys that when I graduate college and start my career I'll take you both on a vacation for a week to Las Vegas, buy a Mercedes for you two to share and show you the finer things in life that you didn't get a chance to have. I didn't forget what I said and I know that I will do those things for you no matter how long it takes. I LOVE YOU BOTH!

2.) It didn't work the first time around but you proved to me that you we're worth a second chance. You taught me to love when i was really close to giving up on it.  You are my lover, my friend, my soul mate. We argue way to much but even through all the hardships & headaches I put you through you just seem to not let go, I absolutely love you for that. You made me realize that not all guys are the same and maybe I could fall in love again after the last relationship I been through just didn't seem to work out. If it wasn't for you following your cousins to dance class I wouldn't have met you but I'm glad I was dancing at the studio at that time because it brought me here with you today :) I just wanna thank you for being there for me when I had no one else to run to, for you staying by my side when I just couldn't handle life at my worse, for you always cheering me up when I felt so down. I know sometimes it seems like I don't care but I honestly care about you, more than you can ever imagine. I WANNA THANK YOU FOR BEING IN MY LIFE.

3.) I remember when I first met you, you we're outside my house and said that my house was burning, which it kinda was because I forgot to turn off the stove and since that day we have been the best of friends. Haha You are one of 6 people I can't bare to lose. You know exactly how to make me laugh when I'm super mad. I tell you just about everything that goes on in my life. Even if I didn't know until my freshman year I'm glad that i did. I can run to you when I just need to vent out my problems, when I need someone to give me advice on things, when I need someone to just make me laugh when I need it. You can be so irking to the point that I just wanna smack you haha. We can argue and fight a lot but just end up laughing it off in the end. No matter how far the distance between is you and me you are always up to cruz and not once did you give up on our friendship. We don't take our arguements seriously and I'm glad that you don't because other people just can't take a joke. We planned so much things together and WE ARE gonna finish our plans. mmkay?! lol

4.) You are ultimately someone that I can't lose. We had our share of fights but it overlooks all the fun we have and all the plans we have to do together. The thought of me losing you is something I can't handle. I can talk to you about almost everything and anything. You know exactly how to make me laugh. You know me so well and you know how I act, what I like and what I don't like, how to make me smile, when to not bother me when I'm pissed off etc. haha your like a sister I never had, fuck I remember when I wanted you as my sister and to kidnap you so that you can live with me. haha YOUR STUCK WITH ME!

5.) Casinsin, omg do you remember the bears? lol, that is one thing I can never forget, that's something that we can always look back on and just laugh at how stupid we were. haha you are one of my bestfriends :) I'm with you like 24/7 365. lol we had each others back since we we're kids. We fought a lot when we're kids and even now but I just can't seem to get mad at you. Haha I know no matter what happens your always gonna be there, haha duh cause your family. lol nah I just wanna thank you for being there for me when I needed you. haha & visversa. I'm gonna be there for you no matter what, even if it seems like I don't wanna talk to anyone.. lol

6.) Breh kk this one I gotta talk all moke because thats what she understands, haha nah but I knew this person since hanabada days and to this days we still act like sistahs and forevah we gon be sistahs to the day we die. haha I never saw you for like 5 years and then all of a sudden I seen you at the carnival then since then we never lost contact and now what we go to the fucking same school. haha I see you everyday & I'm fucking happy that we chill again cause fuck I missed yo' ass BITCH! Just know that you can count on men when you need someone talk to, someone you need to cry to or someone you need advice from even if it might not be the greatest advice. btw; haha, no mess wit her fo' me and all her bradda' and sistah' gon smack you one time. haha.

NOT DONE YET.

7.)

Recently

Recently I've been coming on blogspot and writing in it more than ever. haha today was one of the most chill days I've had lately. Right now I'm at My sis Ry's house chillin' here with some friends but okay so to my point. I haven't had this much fun in so long, I'm not talking about drinking having fun but about just having fun in general. I haven't talked to Shayna like how we did this week like before she moved & it was such a relief. Lately, it's been akward but I'm trying my best not to think of what happened to us recently. I looked past the arguements and thought about all the fun times we had. It makes me smile & laugh about all the plans we had together and all the things we talk about and stuff. Seriously, I haven't had someone to talk to like how I talk to her in so long well besides my other bestfriend AJ. lol

I know it's gonna take a while for us to be the way we we're before but I'm planning to wait because she is someone that I can't lose. I haven't cried over a best-friend EVER in my life and the fact that i cried when we had an argument it made me realize that she's on of the 8 people that i trust the most and I'm glad that I have her and the rest of the people that i trust the most by my side even if we don't get along every time. I PROMISED myself that I'm gonna do all things I planned with her and the rest of 2 people that we will finish everything in our list no matter how long it takes. WE WILL GO TO CALIFORNIA TOGETHER, WE WILL MOVE IN TOGETHER, AND WE WILL BE BESTFRIENDS NO MATTER WHAT! that I can promise you.

It's almost

That time of year again. YAY! Christmas is soon coming up. I really need to start writing down what I need to buy & I need to save money on the side. Recently my bills has been stacking up. I've spend so much on my credit card that I came to the sense that i don't need 3 of it. One is good enough & to use when I REALLY NEED it. Okay so, then on with my topic. Christmas time is my favorite time of the year because my problems just seems to disappear for the time being. Everything around me is happy/joyful. haha I sound so corny but watever. 2008 was a good year for me with it being my senior year, turning 18, graduating & going to college but that there was way to much dramas. I hope 2009 will be a better one.

Wow, I just remembered I'm turning 19 in February. Dang I'm getting old & i realized that when i graduate college I'm going to be 20. AHHH, I'm getting old. lol

So about my day:

I went to school late AGAIN! lol. Keyboarding was chill as always, Ahead of everyone. Lunch seems to get boring because the student lounge gets to crowded. English was fun, i like my english class. I'm actually learning stuff. I finished school at 220p.m today. After school we headed to Dole Cannery to look for my boyfriend & friends scrub for school. Went to Costco, then dropped Shayna off home. We we're stuck in traffic again going to Waipahu. Got home around 615ish. Separated my clothes to do my laundry but I got lazy to do it so I decided to do it tomorrow. I was really tired so i took at nap & woke up at 1130ish. Ate, went on myspace, youtube & now I'm on blogspot. I seem to always do my Blogspot after midnight. haha

yours truly, aimee

MAYBE

Maybe love does find it's way to the person your supposedly meant to be with. I found some out some deep stuff today that i can't talk about. I asked him straight up & he told me exactly how he felt. I'm not talking about me, but about one of my best friends. I believe that love takes time and that if love was meant for you and the person you want to be with then time will take it's place and now he's putting effort in becoming friends with her again. That's a start right. I'm not saying that there going to get back instantly, lets just see where it takes them. Hopefully down the road I want them to go. It's nice to know that I helped out a friend. I knew her since we we're kids & til this day we act like sisters :) i love her to death seriously.

OKAY SOO ON WITH MY DAY....

i woke up late again, but got to school on time. I was relieved that i did my homework and that I'm actually ahead of what I'm suppose to do. I should do that more often. Anyways, Math was boring as usual. I can't ever concentrate in that class, my teachers voice is just really flat that i just seem to lose interest in what he's talking about. So we did a 18 question quiz is was a breeze except for like 2 problems, haha. Got out of math class like 30 mins. into the class because i finished my quiz early. Lunch was BORRRING! && so was CA101, ugh. i miss my CA100. bleh! Hospitality and Tourism class was okay, just not use to finishing school at 420pm. Had a quiz 19 question for Ch. 1 which btw; i failed. 11 questions wrong, I got a 43% wtf?! i was not ready for the quiz. I don't get the whole supervision thing, i'll probably understand it when we talk about it more. I should've listened more in my AOHT class. lol 

After class, I went with my boyfriend to Kaneohe because he needed to go home. I fell asleep for like half an hour. Left my boyfriends house around 7p.m then went to pearls to pick up my paycheck. I LOVED what i made :D lol. After picking up my paycheck we went to Ry's house. Talked stories for a bit with her, my boyfriend, Crystel, Michael & Carlos. Went to the pool after & had choke fun there. haha "IT'S RAINING MEN AMEN" lmfao inside joke. Headed back up to Ry's house about an hour after. Talked stories some more, I had a deep conversation with someone about something. Laughed a lot & then headed home around 2am. Michael lost his keys so we had to find it around salt lake. Before heading home we went to Wally World in 

pearl city. Got home, went on myspace, watched and did this blog. NOOOO HOMEWORK :) 

Now I'm gonna sleep. haha overall today was another chill day.

yours truly, aimee 

PROCASTINATING

PROCASTINATING....

So i finally decided to quit fooling around and start focusing in school. My parents are spending tons of money for me to go to college so i could have a better life than them and lately i haven't been doing my work. Even tho i had a 3.0 last quarter i want to strive for more. So i've made up my mind to quit playing around. I need to do all my work then if i have time i'd go out. The weekends are never going away so why not i concentrate on the weekdays and party on the weekends yenno. I only have school for 18 months so I'm buckling down. When college is over and i graduate then I'm gonna party for awhile & go on a little vacations then finally settle down with a career. I know it's weird that I'm talking like an adult, but I'm starting to understand the meaning of adulthood and the responsibilities that i have to live up to. 

btw; work today was great. Talked stories with my co-worker who btw is hella chill. Got home, finished my english research paper, taking a break now because I'm hungry then I'm gonna finish up the rest of my work which is my 4 news paper articles. 

yours truly aimee

erase

I NEED TO VENT....

If i could i'd erase every bad memory that i could think of I would. I dont want to hold grudges

'but sometimes it hurts so much that i have to yenno. I would love to forgive & forget. Just

forgive & forget all the bad problems, just to pretend that nothing was wrong but i cant. I hate it

when the people you trust the most are the people that hurt you the most. Who ever started

the HATE word really sucks. Hate is such a harsh word yenno. I want to start over with my life,

a new beginning & everything but idk. I want things to go back the way it was when i was

younger. NO DRAMAS, NO BS no nothing but i guess it's the way life is suppose to be. Hands

down I'd literally go on my knees if everything got back to the way it was, to the times when i

loved it the most. The time when i didnt even know what the word problem was. ugh!



yours truly aimee.

who knew

YESS! could today get any fucking better. haha I'm happy as fuck. I went to work today & finished at 4p.m, so that leaves me time to party. Anyway's ate at mickydee's, i haven't ate fast food for like a month. ahh! lmfao. Work was hella chill, short hours but GOOOD pay. straight up excited for the weekend. I need a party mang, foreal. CHEE WHOO :) btw i get paid in 3 days, yeaah. My schedule is great. haha could it get any better. 

but SHIT! i have so much homework, i never even started on all of it & it's due on monday & tuesday. watevers, but um i can't wait until my birthday. I turn 19 & I'm fucking going to CALIFORNIA!!!!!!! I'm excited haha. Why am i so happy today?! lol SDK me.  Yeah okay so I'm leaving soon to go out :) i gotta finish getting ready.

yours truly, aimee

btw; i forgot

LEMME INTRODUCE MA' SELF...

My name's AIMEE. I was born in Oahu, lived in Kalihi & raised in Waipahu. I turn 19 on February 28th. I'm Filipino, Spanish, Japanese. My parents are the best, i can go to them for anything & everything but i prefer to be independent unless i really need help. I have one half sister but we treat each other like we we're real sisters. My heart's dedicated to Jaypee 121605. He proved that not all guys are the same. I work at Initials as a personalizer & cashier, easy pay. I am a full time student at Heald College Honolulu majoring in hospitality & tourism. I love to travel, spend time with my friends, movie nights & just having fun. I'm moving to California in 2010 after i graduate. I'm not sure where tho yet because i love every single city in California :) I want to start a new chapter of my life after college. Settling down & stuff. I've been through so much in Oahu that i can't barely stand it here. Everyone knows everyone. People label you as something without even knowing you & I'm really starting to get tired of it, somehow people know me & it's odd if i don't know them. I'm to old for BS so don't bother me with all kinds of crap because IDGAF.

Since i was young my parents we're sorta never there. They we're always working & i stayed with my sister until i was 12. After that i stayed home by myself. Doing my own stuff, cooking my own food etc. So i was independent since i was young.  But even if my parents weren't at home a lot when they we're they spent every minute with me. I always gotten what i wanted because I'm the only child beside my step sister which we have different dads. I never really knew how hard it was to earn money until i actually had to work for it.  

I'm still learning the meaning of life, & i'm gonna take it slow. I'm not in a rush, i just want to enjoy life.

yours truly aimee

I still

i still haven't written a blog about my boyfriend, whom i loove more than ever. I didn't know what love was until he came along. In my past relationships i thought i was in love but it's nothing compared to what I'm feeling now. He gives me this feeling that i never felt in my past relationships. We argue way to much but it seems to keep us stronger. No matter what we go through we seem to get past all the arguements and what not & still loove each other. I doubt myself in this relationship sometimes but he always proves me wrong, he shows me that he loves me & that I'm worth staying with. I test him to see what he'll do but no matter what i do he doesn't give up. I honestly think that this is TRUE LOVE :D 

Aimee & Jaypee est. 121506 :)

forever & ever babe.

yours truly aimee

Vent

Lately I've been really tired. I've been getting headache's here and there and it sucks. idk why but i just do. well like schools really fricken hard at this moment. i'm trying my best to do my work in advance so that i don't fall behind incase i work and stuff. yenno?! 

btw; i seriously hate hypocrites. on the real like wtf?! i do what i wanna do don't call me a hypocrite when you sure as damn hell do the same thing. Don't act like you all innocent & shit when yenno you as bad if not more bad than me. so stfu! dont run yo mouth like yenno whats going on in my life. grow the fuck up & wise up. I know i aint perfect but dont go tellin people my life story, dont you have anything better fo do, fuck. IDGAF about you but if you involve me bitch i will get in yo face f'real. no joke this aint elementary! handle yo shit like an adult. im tired of people telling me what fo do when they do the same damn thing. && all you say is sorry. do yenno what sorry means? fck, it's apologizing and not doing it again, not apologizing and do it the next day. im jumping from one subject to the next i know & idc cause this aint english i dont gotta be proper. another thing, i hate it when people use my name as an excuse on the daily. its okay from time to time but it aint if you do you all the time. i aint gonna stick up fo yo you if you dont do it fo me. I get pointed as a bad person, as a bad influence. FUCK! yenno, stand up fo yo' self & tell the truth!

shitt eff this BS, im done with this blog!

yours truly aimee

flash back

I was at my cousins house today & I came across a photo album. I took a look & I seen pictures of my cousin and me when we we're little. We've grown so much & so fast. He laughed so hard when we saw how we looked when we we're younger. What we wore, how we looked etc. When i think of it, I'm like was it that long ago? Yenno what I'm saying but at the same time while looking at the pictures & watching the videos I want to go back to how it was when we were kids. From the looks of it how my parents were with me 24/7, how there we're no problems, dramas etc what so ever. But then again it's life yenno what im mean. Okay I'm getting off topic. Anyways, looking back to when we we're kids life was soo simple. We weren't judged, discriminated and so forth. Everyone got along stuff like that. Life was so different when we were kids. But now that we grew up people split up, friends backstab friends & whatever. 

nevermind, i can rant about this topic over & over again, but my main point about this blog is "life passes quickly, take advantage of it but dont take it for granted. You go through 3 main chapters in your life- your childhood, teenage & adult chapter" foreal this is coming from me straight up.

yours truly aimee

2nd term

So today was the first day of our 2nd term. It was overwhelming seriously. I have TOO much classes & its loaded of homework on top of homework. I hope I can handle being a full time student, staying in the honor roll & working full time. I wanna do much but I don't have enough time on my hands due to the fact that I'm already doing a lot. I met new friends :) besides the ones I already. I'm happy especially that in the major I'm taking up we do a lot of group work, group presentations & field trips. So now I have people to help me. lol

btw; everytime I go to work it just keeps getting better & better. My co-workers are hella chill. I have freedom at work. I can do my homework whenever it isn't busy, I can go on break whenever I want to, my friends can chill by my job, I have good pay && closing is a breeze. haha no more working at fastfood places thenk goodness.

yours truly aimee

Basically

Okay so today i went to work, which was really awesome. I made a new friend & made choke commission aside of the fact that i already get paid a lot  haha but this whole day Me & one of my best friends AJ been arguing, not the kind of arguing where we end up not talking but the funny kind of arguing. I can never get mad at him especially cause he's been by my side ever since. We loove to make trouble to each other cause we know we can just laugh it off. So anyways. We we're talking about when we move in to California together!! :) We seriously cant wait & it isn't until 2010. I know for sure that this plan is gonna go through. We're already talking about the rules & shit. haha like who's taking out the garbage which of course is gonna be him, the color & theme of each room, how we're gonna split the bills, whose gonna have the better car & job. He's seriously one of the greatest friends i had. He's basically like a brother to me. 

well, our 2ND term of school starts tomorrow. Back to the books, studying hard & getting to know new people especially because we have new classes & new students every term. I hope i make the honor roll again :) I'm really proud of myself that I'm really focusing in school while working. I'm really being more independent.

yours truly aimee

Starting off

So this is the first time I'm doing this since I had Xanga. So bear with me if I'm a little rusty. haha Well today was my only day off since I started working at my new job, which btw i like alot. I went to go pay my bills that i was behind on lol, went to my cousins baby shower. I haven't been to a family party since forever so it was really nice to see some of my family. I dug out of the party with my friends & my boyfriend to watch The Express, the movie was pretty dope. i teared here & there. 

btw; a little flash back to Friday. I went to work & got off at 9pm headed to wards to watch Quarantine with the boys & some of my old friends. Caught up on things & went bowling after. Cruzed at My sis Ry's house until 6am && finally headed home. haha OVER ALL it was a good day. plus i resolved some stuff.

yours truly Aimee