it hasn't actually hit me

that Michael Jackson the King of pop is actually gone until now.
while i was listening to his songs on youtube it finally hit me.
WOW, after so many years and so many albums.
People took him for granted and saw him differently through out
the years & now that he's gone people realized how much of a great person he really is.



He is a legacy and may his legacy live on forever !

how well...

DO YOU HONESTLY KNOW ME ?
Do you really know me ? I don't like it when people thinks that they know me when they clearly don't.
Do you honestly know everything that I've been through ? I've been through so much that YES it did make me turn into the person that I am today, whether you like it or not this is me now. I know I've changed and I know that a lot of people aren't proud in a way but hey I like who I am now and I LOVE everything and everyone that's in my life. I chose to be the person I am today, I've never been so proud of myself dealing with all the things that has been happening within the time I turned 18. I know some of my decisions hasn't been bright decisions but I've learned from it all and even though I'm struggling I know I'll manage. I hate it so much when people especially girls judge me from what they heard or how I look. I know all the news people hear about me aren't always good news but why believe the rumors ? ask me ! I know I look like this really snobby bitchy girl, but aren't all girls like that when you don't know them at first ? When people actually take the time to get to know me, it's a totally different story and you'll know that I'm not even close to the person you thought I was. I may have those moments where it will seem like I don't like you, just take that into heart cos' I may just have things on my mind.


short and simple, "DON'T JUDGE A BOOK BY IT'S COVER, COS' YOU'LL NEVER KNOW WHAT KIND OF STORY IS WRITTEN ON THOSE SHEETS"

as days pass....

I get axious of the future. what's in store for me ? I have so much plans for myself. I've got everything down from where I want to live, where i want to work, what i want to do etc. But when i think about it all in all, i think to myself I am really going to make it ? Is my parents going to be correct? I want to prove so much people wrong, that I am capable of being what I always dreamt of being. That I can be that successful person, having my name known and having all the things that I want in life in the palm on my hands. I want to be that person that everyone knows. I want to flaunt it in everyone's face that I'm not the person people thinks I am, this bitchy-all up in your face-know it all-spoiled girl cos' I'm not. I've been nearly independent my whole entire life becos' of the fact that my parents we're always working 2 jobs and never being at home. I know how to manage everything and I pay my own bills.

TRUST ME....I WILL PROVE YOU WRONG !