Honestly,

I had enough, I could try my best to pretend that everything is okay but I can't fool everyone any longer. I'm seriously tired of everything. I wanna give up so badly but I want to prove so much people wrong. I'm not a screw up. I'm sick and tired of sticking up for everyone. Honestly, grow up and stick up for yourself. What else could go wrong in my life. Lately things haven't been going as well as I planned. It's really annoying, but I guess it's life. It's ALWAYS about life yenno. I just wanna scream o the top of my lungs "I GIVE UP, FUCK IT, FUCK EVERYONE WHO DID NOTHING BUT GIVE ME HARD TIMES, FUCK LIFE IN GENERAL" but I can't. I wanna cry my eyes out about all my problems but it still wouldn't be enough. It may look like I'm well put together, that I have everything I want and so on but that's not even close. I want to move far away as possible to see if anyone would care or even notice that I'm gone. I don't think that I can run to anyone anymore, because everyone I know screwed me over at least once and it's hard for me to honestly trust anyone with my heart and problems besides my parents. 

I have so much problems with school, money, bills, family, & friends. I sometimes wish I was those rich kids who didn't have to work for there money, that it was just handed to me. That family problems wasn't an issue, that my life was the perfect t.v show that you'd see on t.v but it's not! URGH!!!! I hate everything at this moment, I wanna die so I won't any problems anymore. 

Fuck it! 

Did god intend this?! or did I make it this way? 

yours truly, aimee