This or that.

Today while in the car I realized when I was talking to my best-friend on the way to drop him off home that I can do one thing but then I can't do another that is similar to the subject. Like Flying, I love to go on airplanes to travel and not boat cruzes. It's probably because I'm not use to the whole boat cruz liner thing. I love the view when I'm in a plane but I've noticed that it's more dangerous to fly because of the circumstances of crashing or whatever. But the thing is I don't like boats because it takes like 3 times longer than planes so its a bigger risk if something goes on. I really can't get to my a point because it's gonna take me a while for me to even understand what I was talking about in the car. But to cut it short, here's examples of what I can do and something similar that I can't do.

I can't ride the bike but I can ride the scooter (both 2 wheels)

I can't swim but I love to float and I love the water ( same subject: water)

I can Roller blade but i can't ice skate (exact same thing but one is on ice)

I can snowboard but not ski (snow is involved)

I can long board but not skateboard ( both boards but one is longer)

I love to fly on planes but not boat cruises (transportation but one takes longer       than the other)

I can write with my left and not my right (about writing)

I can dance but I can't sing (performing arts)

I can drive automatic but I can;t drive standard (operating a car)

etc, blah blah blah!

yours truly, aimee

Honestly,

I had enough, I could try my best to pretend that everything is okay but I can't fool everyone any longer. I'm seriously tired of everything. I wanna give up so badly but I want to prove so much people wrong. I'm not a screw up. I'm sick and tired of sticking up for everyone. Honestly, grow up and stick up for yourself. What else could go wrong in my life. Lately things haven't been going as well as I planned. It's really annoying, but I guess it's life. It's ALWAYS about life yenno. I just wanna scream o the top of my lungs "I GIVE UP, FUCK IT, FUCK EVERYONE WHO DID NOTHING BUT GIVE ME HARD TIMES, FUCK LIFE IN GENERAL" but I can't. I wanna cry my eyes out about all my problems but it still wouldn't be enough. It may look like I'm well put together, that I have everything I want and so on but that's not even close. I want to move far away as possible to see if anyone would care or even notice that I'm gone. I don't think that I can run to anyone anymore, because everyone I know screwed me over at least once and it's hard for me to honestly trust anyone with my heart and problems besides my parents. 

I have so much problems with school, money, bills, family, & friends. I sometimes wish I was those rich kids who didn't have to work for there money, that it was just handed to me. That family problems wasn't an issue, that my life was the perfect t.v show that you'd see on t.v but it's not! URGH!!!! I hate everything at this moment, I wanna die so I won't any problems anymore. 

Fuck it! 

Did god intend this?! or did I make it this way? 

yours truly, aimee

Not according to plan

So today i woke up pretty early because I wanted to go to the swap meet just because I haven't been there in awhile. On our way to the stadium it was raining super hard plus there was gonna be a UH game so swap meet closed early. ugh, haha so we decided to eat some little ceasars in salt lake. Me, my boyfriend and Shayna talked stories after we finished eatting about the jobs we were gonna get after we finished college. Pretty deep convo. Afterwards we walked around k-mart because we we're already there. I wanted to look at the christmas decorations, ornaments and trees but about 5 minutes of looking around we heard over the speaker in the store that they we're giving away free things. We wanted to check it out so we did, and ended up getting a small free micro fiber cloth, thats it. But the demonstrations we're really cool so we had to get what they we're trying to sell. It was called Mr. Sticky and dang it works, honestly. I don't believe things unless i see it for my self. 

Okay so like i said i wanted to look at the Christmas stuff but we got side tracked. We dropped off Shayna home then headed to pearl ridge because I needed to exchange something at foreva'21. lol But ended up not being able to because the thing I wanted to exchange was already sold out. So my boyfriend and I went to Tilt so he could play his game for a while then headed home. I wanted to re-arrange my room so we did after we ate again, haha. I get really irked fast and I was because I didn't get to cleaning until like 15 minutes of being in my house. I didn't want to get mad at my boyfriend but he just doesn't know when to leave me alone especially when I'm mad, so as the usual I got mad him. Tried to re-arrange my room so many times but I didn't like how it was so we ended up rearranging my room for like 4 hours. I got really lazy and mad to go out so I just wanted to stay home and rest cause I was tired too. We we're suppose to watch movies with my friends but we're gonna be late for the movie so we never went. Bowling didn't go through because my friends ex chickened out, that dippshitt. Ended up watching a movie with my boyfriend but he ended up falling asleep so I was watching it by myself, as usual. After the movie was done we ate again lol. 

That's about it soo like my day didn't go according to plan at all and I hate it when it turns out like this but watevers I'm over it. hah!

yours truly, aimee