feb28th, 2009

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO ME! :] today not only mark's my nineteen years living but it also marks our one year anniversary! Overall, today was one of the best days of my life. In tha' afternoon Crystel, Kat & I went to liquid metals to get piercings. Too bad we couldn't record. Crystel & I did our noses & kat did her naval. Even though we waited for about three hours in line it was well worth it. Thanks to everyone who came to my party, & no thanks to those who didn't. It just shows who'll do just about anything to come :] I had a lot of fun either way. I met new friends once again & it's such a great feeling. This day couldn't have gotten any better. Everyone was just having fun, no dramas for once & everyone enjoyed tha' night. I talked stories with just about everyone :] & caught up on some news. Lol

Nights like these are going to happen more often :]



....................here's to great friends :]

out of place,

(viaaa sidekick08)

Ever felt like your in a place that you were never meant to be at? Like your in a place for the wrong reason. I feel like that all the time. I feel like I don't belong where I'm at right now. That I can do so much better & be so much better off somewhere else. I'm going nowhere where I'm living. I want to get out of here sooo badly, but schools in the way & I don't want to go through the hassel of transfering schools. I wake up everyday look at the ceiling, look around & scream inside.

I just want to start over in a new place & never come back. I was hoping to move in past July but because my parents didn't have enough money & they didn't get approved for financial aid for me to go to AI (Arts Institute) of Los Angeles so I'm SUCK HERE! I dream of the day when I can get out of this place & move to California with my boyfriend, & bestfriend.


I'm just counting the days....



Yours truly, Aimee

Giving up

Sometimes I just feel like giving up. 

I don't want to feel all this pain that I'm feeling.

It hurts to think and times.

I WISH I could take back all the things that

happened in my past, but I know it's not

gonna happen. I've made so much mistakes

throughout my life that I just can't take it 

anymore. I'm still paying for the consequences

til' this day & I have been reminded on a daily

how much of a screw up I am. How I just 

can't do anything right and everything I do

is pointless and stupid. It sucks to have people

I love so much put me down in so many ways.

I don't ever get praised for the good things I've done

they just always point out and remember how bad 

I was when I was younger. I'm suffering because

of all the bullshit people put me through. NOBODY

gets it & NOBODY understands and will never EVER

understand the exact situation that I'm in on a daily

basis. I try to prove to myself and to everyone that 

I'm not a screw up and that I've grown and learned

to do and be better but somehow it doesn't work!

I hate being like this. I just wanna take everything

back, start over and redo everything but I can't

because IT'S LIFE!

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