I don't want to feel all this pain that I'm feeling.
It hurts to think and times.
I WISH I could take back all the things that
happened in my past, but I know it's not
gonna happen. I've made so much mistakes
throughout my life that I just can't take it
anymore. I'm still paying for the consequences
til' this day & I have been reminded on a daily
how much of a screw up I am. How I just
can't do anything right and everything I do
is pointless and stupid. It sucks to have people
I love so much put me down in so many ways.
I don't ever get praised for the good things I've done
they just always point out and remember how bad
I was when I was younger. I'm suffering because
of all the bullshit people put me through. NOBODY
gets it & NOBODY understands and will never EVER
understand the exact situation that I'm in on a daily
basis. I try to prove to myself and to everyone that
I'm not a screw up and that I've grown and learned
to do and be better but somehow it doesn't work!
I hate being like this. I just wanna take everything
back, start over and redo everything but I can't
because IT'S LIFE!
>;(
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