four twenty-four twenty one

this has been an unforgettable day and by unforgettable i don't mean in a good way. After the clock hit midnight the day became more and more eff'd up. First i heard the most horrible news i've heard in so long. Our friend Dylan passed away. It really shocked me because i thought he was doing better but i guess not. I know i should've went to the hospital when i found out that it was going to be the last day to see Dylan. I would've gone in a heart beat if i had a ride there but i didn't. I didn't know Dylan as well as my other guy friends did but I was getting to know him & right when I was starting to talk to him even more something like this happened. I really care about him & everyone else i know even if i knew them for a day or for 10 years. A friend is a friend and to lose someone is something no one wants go through. I remember the night we we're all chilling at Jo's house and you we're stoned in Myles car & you started talking to me. Oh man, i won't forget. These are memories that I will always cherish. Or those night at Tantalus :'( I honestly am going to miss you. I cried so much & i didn't go to sleep when i found out from amanda that you had pasted. I really do regret not seeing you for that one last time. If i could rewind time a day back I would. May you rest in peace Dylan Alao, I know your in a better place now. May you rest in peace. (April 21, 2009) I'll Miss you.


As the day progressed, I couldn't attend school because of a financial aid situation. When I was telling my mom about the situation she started yelling at me. When people yell at me, i can't hold my temper so i started yelling back at her. From at one simple conversation it turned out to become an emotion ride. My mom started crying telling me that I didn't have respect for her & that i can't carry a conversation with her without not yelling at her once. I know i shouldn't have blew up and yelled. I felt so bad when my mom started crying.


what else could go wrong?!