BECAUSE....

In life I fuck things up. I don't plan it but yet it occurs to many times.
I tell myself maybe it's meant to be that way becos' I'm not meant to
be happy or meant to be good at anything. I wonder what's my purpose
in life? I know that what I'm doing right now isn't my purpose. I put
in my mind that THIS IS THE LAST TIME but it never does get in my head,
like it's just some silly thought when it really isn't. I have so many
plans for myself and I know that what I'm doing isn't one of them. I hear
from so many people that "I'm better than that" or "I have so much potential I just need to put my talents into use" things like that. Maybe I just need a push,
something or someone to help me achieve what I want to. I'm just so use to doing
things on my own because my parents we're always to busy doing this and that
to notice. IDK! but one things for sure, I know now to listen to that voice
in my head that's telling me to do what's right. I need to refocus and
keep repeating to myself the goals I have in life. NO MORE SCREW UPS!!!