out of place,

(viaaa sidekick08)

Ever felt like your in a place that you were never meant to be at? Like your in a place for the wrong reason. I feel like that all the time. I feel like I don't belong where I'm at right now. That I can do so much better & be so much better off somewhere else. I'm going nowhere where I'm living. I want to get out of here sooo badly, but schools in the way & I don't want to go through the hassel of transfering schools. I wake up everyday look at the ceiling, look around & scream inside.

I just want to start over in a new place & never come back. I was hoping to move in past July but because my parents didn't have enough money & they didn't get approved for financial aid for me to go to AI (Arts Institute) of Los Angeles so I'm SUCK HERE! I dream of the day when I can get out of this place & move to California with my boyfriend, & bestfriend.


I'm just counting the days....



Yours truly, Aimee

Giving up

Sometimes I just feel like giving up. 

I don't want to feel all this pain that I'm feeling.

It hurts to think and times.

I WISH I could take back all the things that

happened in my past, but I know it's not

gonna happen. I've made so much mistakes

throughout my life that I just can't take it 

anymore. I'm still paying for the consequences

til' this day & I have been reminded on a daily

how much of a screw up I am. How I just 

can't do anything right and everything I do

is pointless and stupid. It sucks to have people

I love so much put me down in so many ways.

I don't ever get praised for the good things I've done

they just always point out and remember how bad 

I was when I was younger. I'm suffering because

of all the bullshit people put me through. NOBODY

gets it & NOBODY understands and will never EVER

understand the exact situation that I'm in on a daily

basis. I try to prove to myself and to everyone that 

I'm not a screw up and that I've grown and learned

to do and be better but somehow it doesn't work!

I hate being like this. I just wanna take everything

back, start over and redo everything but I can't

because IT'S LIFE!

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